Moving Forward...

4/23/09
You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what He has promised. –Hebrews 10:36
These words have been such an anchor for me these past few weeks . A friend of mine sent this scripture to me and it has really helped me continue to push through and continue to move forward.
I’ll be real honest here and say, these past few weeks have been difficult for me emotionally and somewhat physically. I arrived home from TIRR on April 16th. I am so happy to be home in my own bed (without any interruptions in the middle of the night from nurses or other hospital staff) and be home so I can be a mommy to Katie and a wife to Aaron. I am ready for our life to move forward. I really have to just keep telling myself that I have to be grateful where I am at in life because so many others have it harder than us. I just think about some of the families that have loved ones that have been in rehab for several months...I know that God just gives them the grace to go through their situations. And I just thank God that I have been so blessed to have my in-laws here to help with Katie and the affairs of our household. For if it weren't for them...I don't know where we would have been.

I have to truly apologize for not writing on our blog these past couple of weeks...I have started writing a few times...but I never finished (the perfectionistic part of me coming out...I just wanted my words to just be so perfect that I never got around to finishing what I had started...so tonight I finally just said...I needed to just write, with no if, ands, or buts about it!). Thank you for being patient with me.

Many things have happened since I last wrote...lets see if I can remember all that has happened.

Before we left TIRR on April 16th we were able to leave on a pass for Easter. We had a great time at church and loved being at home with Katie and my in-laws.

Later the next week I was discharged from TIRR (April 16th) and Tuesday (April 21st) I had an appointment with Mentis (the post acute therapy place). I was evaluated for OT, PT, speech and to see what groups that they felt may be beneficial to me.

Today (Thursday April 23rd), they gave me my schedule for my therapies for this next week. The OT, PT, and speech all said really positive comments about how well I was doing…given that I only had surgery such a short time ago. OT and speech both mentioned that I would probably only be with them for a pretty short period of time because I was doing so well in those areas. I still have some strengthening to do in PT for my left leg…I am continuing to not be able to move my left foot from side to side and upwards. Although the good thing is that she feels that there is a flicker of movement in my ankle…which just means that it is only with time that I should regain my movement and strength. So in the meantime…continue to pray for my foot, for strength, and for endurance. Soon my in-laws will be leaving and I will be home with Katie during the day. Even though she is walking now (which makes it much easier on me). She still requires for us to take her up and down the stairs at some point. When I have to be at the house by myself with her…we will modify things to help limit having to go up and down the stairs during the day (e.g. keeping her play yard downstairs for her to nap in, etc).

I had my MRI this past Friday (April 17th) and we will know our results on Monday (27th). Yes, our appt. was rescheduled again. This appointment basically will let us know what our next step in our process will be (e.g. will I have to have chemotherapy, or just follow-up MRI’s to make sure that I continue to be tumor free!, etc). Please continue to pray that the MRI shows no signs of re-growth of cancerous cells.